Since 8th grade, my introversion has gradually increased. I was a lot more outgoing back then. I’m not going to talk about introversion or personality types in this post, though. I have major self-esteem problems. I make lots of self-deprecating jokes, I struggle accepting compliments, and I don’t think of myself very highly. One of the worst parts of this is when I take people’s jokes seriously, or ask a question about my personality, and get an answer I don’t expect. Over the years, based on these things, as well as noticing peoples’ reactions to me, I’ve gotten the idea in my head that people think I’m creepy. After asking multiple people, it seems that some people even agree with that idea! I don’t want to come across as creepy. I try so hard to be likable, and I even go out of my way to not be creepy. I actively avoid hugging some of my friends, and I don’t maintain eye contact for long amounts of time. I try not to let it show, but this really affects me. I don’t want to come across like I’m wanting pity, I just want to share my thoughts and feelings. This post is really depressing. I’m just glad I’ve got good friends who don’t think I’m creepy. Having good friends is a really good way to feel better about stuff. I’m not sure how I’m gonna end this, so goodbye.